Mother's Day

Mother's Day was bittersweet for me this year.  You see this is my "third" Mother's Day but my first actually having a baby.  Confusing?  Let me explain.  Three years ago in 2009 I was pregnant from our second IVF procedure on Mother's Day and actually we told Gary's parents that day by showing them the pictures.  I miscarried that pregnancy four days later at 8 1/2 weeks.  This was my second miscarriage and I was devastated.  I was convinced I was NEVER going to celebrate an actual Mother's Day with a baby. :(  Roll forward one year to 2010 and again I was pregnant on Mother's Day.  Ten weeks this time so further than I was at my last miscarriage but still not in the "safe" zone.  Gary was forbidden from uttering anything resembling Happy Mother's Day to me and we did NOT share the news with family this time.  I was afraid it would "jinx" things, which I know is ridiculous but try telling that to a hormonal pregnant woman who is terrified of miscarrying again.  You can't.  We kept the news to ourselves until the 20 week ultrasound, crazy I know!  But until I knew that everything was "ok" in there I just couldn't do it!  Anyway, so here it is, 2011 and I finally have my take home miracle in Lucas.  Gary would have loved to do grand things for me this year but since I decided to quit my job and stay at home his first year this means we have to give up certain luxuries, such as exchanging gifts for holidays.  So I got to sleep in til 9 (heavenly!) and Lucas and Daddy brought me breakfast in bed.  Then Lucas refused to nap and screamed for an hour. LOL  So that was pretty much like everyday.  But he did finally nap and then we went outside and Daddy took these..

I am pretty sure it was the best Mother's Day, Ever.